I remember the first time.

The first time you took me to the roof deck of the building you were temporarily living in, just because you told me you couldn't keep up with the hassle of commuting everyday. Yes, you have to live a few kilometers away from me but I completely understood. You were doing it for yourself but it was absolutely heartwarming to know that it was not only for you, but for us. It sparked this intense flame inside my heart to also work hard for our future. If ever we had one.

It's kind of funny because you bring me here but all we do is stand in silence.

But silence is nothing when I feel the warmth of your hands between mine.

You took me to the roof deck countless of times, and you never got tired of showing me all the city lights which were impossible to count. They came in all shapes and sizes. Some were small, some were huge. Some illuminated a whole building or a structure but the most unique thing I observed about them is they resembled stars to me. Yes, the stars we see each night. Twinkling, dying, sparkling, infinitesimal. And there's something comforting about standing there, with you. No words, just the slight humming of the city down below. It felt like forever, it felt like I was standing on the edge of the universe with you and nothing else. 

And just like the stars we see when we look up, your presence comforts me.

Everytime our love goes downhill, and we question everything that falls right in front of us, you grab my hand and drag me to the roofdeck of the building you were staying in, no matter how far we are from there. But this time, the curiosity has reached my darling little mind and tonight, the only question that was running inside my head was, "Why?"

Out of all the beautiful places we've been to and we've explored, why would you rather bring me here everytime? I asked and your answer was simple.

"I always bring you here to remind you that your love is important and vital to me. Just like how important the stars are in the evening sky. They might be small but if you gather millions of them, it would be enough to illuminate the whole sky. And you are enough to illuminate my life."

Your answer was simple.

But it was the only thing I needed to hear.

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Hello! Just a silly little story I came up while I was staring at these pictures I took from the roofdeck of my older sister's dorm. Shitty, I know. 

This week has been tiring as fuck, but it also gave me experiences and adventures I never got the chance to try out and explore before. College has overwhelmed me in more ways than one and I believe it was the "culture shock" my teachers, guidance counselors, my friends from higher batches and some people who are more knowledgeable about this told me about. The "shock" lasted for about 3 days but I think I finally got over it. I think.

College sure made me realize how "petty" the tiredness I felt back in High School is. And maybe, just maybe, If I'm lucky enough, the tiredness and stress I feel right now will make me lose even a small amount of weight. (YES!) I'll probably post my "first week of college" experience next week and I'm hella excited about it. I can't wait to share what had happened for the past weeks with you.

I'll see you on the next one.

Au revoir! x A